life is true

"Women," a drama I do not yet truly understand. I was reminded by my girlfriend that I can only get better at doing this weblog by being truthful with everything that happens in my life. Sunday wasn't gloomy because of the weather. It was a dreary day due to what we now call unwarranted madness. Its very easy to label it as that after the fact.
I won't get into the issue, but Saturday night is when it all started. After Shawana and I got home from dinner with her local friends Sherita & Onekki, the lack of communication commensed. A volley of misdirected tension quickly followed by hurls of anger struck down our relationship. Making it resemble a deserted town after a bomb dropped and killed all of its inhabitants. Now we aren't perfect and like many couples starting out, we've had skirmishes in the past, but come Sunday morning I felt our lives together had truly come to an end. I went through a dictionary worth of emotions, from hurt to anger. From worry to hatred, but never did the proper thing of finding the real problem. I looked for guidance in this matter from my friends, my family and I received alot of support. But that didn't solve the situation, because we didn't talk.
I may apologize, but I've learned that proper communication between two people is not tossing emotional outburts towards one another. Its more like leaning on each other's trust and really finding it. So another day, and I'm still a student of life.